POETRY

APATHY by Lilo SJ 

Your apathy is toxic, like plutonium rots skin
The world needs those bleeding hearts, that drip drip drip
To the stories on the news, for the rape victim, to the mass murder
To every car crash, to every sick child, and those hate crimes
The people need to feel, or this wont stop in time
This wrong will continue and empathy will cease to be
Can you stand and say you will never see
Because you can’t bleed for every story on the news, Please
But you can hate on the Scott Pilgrim Film?
Hipster, acid wash, ray ban wearing, ripped t-shirt trash.
Your apathy my dear, is toxic like lung cancer spreads
It pollutes the very gravel you walk on
In the chuck taylors you deam awesome threads
You think that if one person feels you don’t have to
Your life is sad, since your empathy no longer exists
The logic you fill yourself with further poisons the catalyst
It will only grow the longer you feed it
And you know its killing you inside
To drown anything you think needs to hide
We need to understand the terrible things been done
This apathy is toxic, and something needs to change.

ADOLESCENCE IGNORAMUS by Lilo SJ
Love, an affection all of us crave
Washing over us in a colorful wave
When we’re young, we play
Changing lovers from day to day
No worries about being old
No thoughts of dying alone
Though of course, sooner or later
We’ll search for our half who’s greater
Every day will pass before they’re found
Where self-pity makes awful sounds
But until that time comes to pass
Our hearts remain stone, not glass
Shatter resistant, anything but bullet proof
And that constant waiting to act aloof
We are the ones who grieve the nothing
Who wish we had that something
Constantly searching and never finding
Because we all know loves blinding
But as we’re young, we’ll just play
Knowing full well, we don’t intend to stay

13 by Lilo SJ 
An epic 22 years of adventure, I’d like to say
But its more like 9 years lost, and 13 of pain
Pain, with interludes of grandeur all too fictitious
The lies of love, a deception all too seditious
But pity myself that I will not, can not
I’ll use those that can not be forgot
Lingering behind safe electronics
Trying to improve on my mnemonics
But it gets me no where, only heart sick
Dreaming of a life that seems only but a trick
But can’t I live a life I dream?
Why do I feel I am not allowed the theme?
My self loathing, it keeps me lonely
And my self pity soothes me coldly
I want more from life than this
A need for art to come like a river
But fear I’m nothing more than a sliver
Unnoticed, and unchanged to the demands
Feeling every day, as if I were meant
For so much more than to just be content
To change the lives of hundreds
Who’s minds I have flooded
With the euphony in my veins
I’m hoping, and preying to a false deity
To grant some form of solace
From a life with a beauty-less surface
I would like to die happy,
And in love with myself, I’m sappy
I’ve grown into someone I don’t know
A person full of aching life to show
And I am anxious to know her
She is a full fledged entrepreneur
She is amazing at what she does
Holding no one hostage, because
She doesn’t need anybody but herself
And I can’t wait to meet her
To see her, hiding in myself.